Head in the Clouds

Yesterday I was somewhere.

I only left the house to take Max to school.

and I picked him up from school.

I also went to the gym then came home.

but I felt like I was gone all day.

Just somewhere. 

I had a million things to do.

and was doing what I could haphazardly.

I was thinking and dreaming and saying uh-huh to my children without computing a thing.

My brain was in the clouds. 

When I was putting Gwen down for her nap.

Rockwell barged in. and briefly snapped me out.

I looked at his chubby cheeked huge grin and was back. I looked down at Gwen who was smiling up at me. Her face was the happiest thing in the world to me in that moment. {even though there wasn't an ounce of sleepiness in it.}

I felt present. 

for the first time that day.

I wasn't thinking about what I needed to do next. 

Wasn't thinking about what to make for dinner.

about switching the laundry.

returning emails and phone calls.

finishing songs.

just there.

and It was heavenly.

I want to have more of those moments.

I am trying.

* photo: “Upon Pondering” by Brooke Shaden via brookeshaden.com